Today, I went into Whole Foods in Hillcrest, San Diego to get some food for the grill. I’ve never grilled before so after I write this post, I’ll be Googling “how to use a grill.” Exciting times.
I walked up to the meat counter to get chicken, with my Bose headphones on (I love these things and wear them everywhere).
“You bumpin’ Dre?” the guy at the deli counter asked.
“No.”
“A podcast?”
“Nope.”
“Well, what are you listening to?”
“Imagine Dragons….”
“Ohhh, mannnnn…..”
Now, there’s nothing wrong with Imagine Dragons (love them) but the truth is, I’ve been feeling VERY oversensitive lately, and my music choice was only amplifying that.
Like thin-skin-everything-affects-me-way-too-dramatically sensitive. (Seriously, did you see what I posted yesterday…?) I feel like a freaking LEAF IN THE WIND LATELY. (That’s something I remember from Landmark. They would call you a “leaf in the wind” if you were affected by other people’s energy too much). Haha. But truly – I am a leaf in the wind sometimes, and I want to be a TREE IN THE GROUND. (click that link for a great grounding meditation).
I haven’t been consistently working out since my tailbone fracture (6+ months now) and I feel so much more powerful, strong and confident when I’m exercising regularly. And one of the things that comes along with working out consistently, for me, is listening to upbeat music.
But instead, I’ve been walking around listening to The Temper Trap and staring into the sky and wondering why I cry so easily.
After talking to the Whole Foods deli counter man, I remembered the days when I used to go to Barry’s Bootcamp 3x a week (yeah, that got expensive) and I only listened to hip hop. Nothing could mess with me then. That girl is inside me. She is me!!! WTF.
(I love emo music, and I love emotions, my friends, don’t get me wrong. I just have a tendency sometimes to amplify every little emotion with more and more emo music until I’m basically in a puddle, and this little trick snaps me right out of that).
I walked out of Whole Foods after that small but impactful deli conversation and I put on a Spotify playlist called “Hip” that I made a few years back during a more hardcore workout phase. Most of the songs came from Noah’s class at Barry’s. I have another playlist called “STAIRS” that I used to listen to while running the stairs at Fort Greene Park in Brooklyn.
Of course, Heart of A Champion was the first song that came on. And I actually walked home with a swagger. NOT KIDDING. (Yes, I walk to Whole Foods here like a stubborn New Yorker who won’t take a car, even though it’s a 2 mile walk).
“I got that can’t stop, won’t stop, in my veins – that’s why they can’t stop, won’t stop, screaming the name… Jenny! Jenny!”
Hahaaha!
Who’s oversensitive now?
Seriously though, changing the music you listen to has a huge effect on how you feel. Change your music, change your attitude, change your life.
Music is SO POWERFUL. I’ve been meaning to study music and emotions in more depth – and I will.
But for now, just spoon yourself a nice big dose of musical badassery and see if it changes how you approach your day.
A workout helps too. Endorphins are real. And that’ll come next.
All we do is win, win, win #nomatterwhat
Like a G6,
Jenny
P.S. please feel free to leave your favorite upbeat/hip hop songs in the comments, because all of mine are many years old at this point…and I need some fresh beats so I can impress Whole Foods employees.
Jemini says
This one is perfect for what you’re talking about. Do you know it??!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WopyrETP-CU
Jenny Sansouci says
I don’t know it but I will add it to the playlist! Thank you!
lisa says
obviously kendrick lamar “humble” “dna”
dj khaled “holy key”
chance the rapper
I hope these are cool enough for whole foods lol!
Jenny Sansouci says
Thank you!!!! hahaha!!
Stacey says
Hi Jenny! I’ve been following you for a few years. I’m about 18 years older than you and I have two children, ages 20 and 25. Sometimes I can’t even read one of your posts because it hits too close to my own feelings and then I’d have to get deep with myself and then, ugh, who knows where that would go and it would be a whole emotional thing (mature, right?). But right now I am listening to my husband and son put boards up on our windows as we anticipate the latest hurricane so of course I’m feeling all kinds of scary emotions and then this post of yours popped up in my email. Hmmmmmm, seems as if the universe is talking to me, no? :) I am a sensitive soul like you but I spent many years trying to suppress it. I’ve been woking on myself the last few years trying not to fight it so much, embrace it more and think of it as my super power instead of a character flaw. This post was a perfect reminder that taking care of that part of my personality is essential and it’s okay to feel oversensitive once in awhile and there are others out there who feel it too. Wish I would have been this wise when I was your age!! Keep doing you, you’re a lovely light in our world.
Jenny Sansouci says
Hey Stacey, thank you so much for this comment. I completely relate. I do think being emotional is a superpower as long as we don’t let it overtake us into the depths of over-analyzing and despair. The book “The Daily Stoic” helps me a lot with that. Your comment means so much to me, thank you for reading, sending you so much love!