Last summer, I left my apartment and life in New York with a heavy heart and ventured out to live in Los Angeles for a few months.
Every time I sat in a meditation and asked for guidance on what to do next, I kept getting the message “focus on your healing and everything else will fall into place.” When I asked what I needed to do to heal, my intuition kept saying “yoga.” So I listened. Once I got to LA, I threw myself into whatever yoga classes came my way. One day I decided to venture over to Runyon Canyon for a 10:30am outdoor yoga class in the park, taught by Daniel Overberger. Despite the fact that we were practicing outside on the dirt on a slanted hill, and there were sometimes bees buzzing around me and ants crawling around on my mat, it quickly became my favorite yoga class to go to.
The reason? Well, at the end of the class, Daniel would always say these words:
“You’re living your dream. Don’t miss it. Namaste.”
Every time the class ended with that phrase, I would think about my life. “You’re living your dream.” I would realize that even though my life was far from perfect and I was going through some really difficult emotions, there were so many beautiful things I did have in my life that I’d only dreamed about in the past. Every time, it filled me with intense gratitude.
It also made me realize how much time I spend thinking about the things I don’t have yet, the things I’ve lost, the things I need to “work on” and living from the “when I have _____ everything will be great” mentality.
While it’s cool to have goals and dreams for the future, I think most of us spend a lot of time trying to get that next thing we want, and then saying “NEXT!” without actually taking the time to appreciate and be present for the beautiful life we’ve created. “You’re living your dream. Don’t miss it.”
A few of years earlier, sitting at a 9-5 job, I had dreamed about creating a life where I could travel and live bi-coastally and do work that mattered to me. At the time, it seemed so out of reach. Now I was living it. My sister and I had always talked about living together. Now, I was sleeping in a bedroom across the hall from her in Hollywood. For so long I had dreamed about being a writer. Now I had a healthy living blog that was allowing me get press passes to yoga festivals on the regular. I mean, so much amazing stuff was happening that I wasn’t really taking the time to fully appreciate.
Maybe I didn’t have everything I had ever dreamed of all at once, there was heartache and endless things to work on and improve and figure out, but it was true…in so many ways, I was living my dream. And in so many ways, through focusing on hurt and lack and endlessly searching for the next thing I needed to change, I was missing it.
With all of the gorgeous blessings in our lives, we so often choose to focus on the areas we feel lack. Focusing so much attention on what’s not working in our lives totally takes away from the pleasure and enjoyment of what we do have, even if we feel like we’re not “there” yet. I mean, really, are we ever “there” anyway? How about being HERE? Here is actually pretty damn good, if we would actually pay attention.
It reminds me of a quote from a Paramore song, “Looking Up” – this quote gives me the same feeling.
“Taking for granted most everything that I would have died for just yesterday.”
Think about where you were a year ago, five years ago, whatever. What do you have now that you only dreamed about then? Big or small, it doesn’t matter. Do you take the time to really soak up all the wonderful things you’ve created for yourself, or are you always just onto the next thing, never feeling like it’s good enough or “complete”?
Sitting on my dirty yoga mat in Runyon Canyon with an ant crawling over my foot, I realized, even with all the tears and the difficulty, how kick-ass life really is.
I decided to ask Daniel where he got the phrase, and what it means to him. Here’s what he had to say:
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I like that Daniel and I have slightly different interpretations of the quote, but the point is still the same: experience life now. Get to it!
What things about your life, big or small, are you experiencing today that you had only dreamed of? Are you taking the time to appreciate what you do have in your life? Let’s get some gratitude on here, friends…
“I have been missing the rapture this whole time, of being forever incomplete.” -Alanis Morissette
Jeanne says
i could cry! i’m so proud of your courageous journey and your willingness to share the magnificent insight its revealed. i love you.
jenny sansouci says
Awww mush fest! I love you Jeanne!
Lindsey Witmer says
<3
Daniel Overberger says
Awesome!
Christy Morley says
Awesome. Awesome. Awesome. So proud of you, my friend. :) This is a lesson that I need to learn… I need to stop and enjoy the life I’ve created instead of powering through it.
xoxo
Taylor Jenkinson says
Stumbled upon this on Facebook after a long day at work and it was oddly exactly what I needed to read today. Amazing words, thank you for sharing!
-Taylor
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Thank you for writing this. Your timeliness is uncanny. In reading your story, I felt as though a mirror had been held up to mine. This has been a less than favorable time for me and your words served as a reminder to live in the now, and enjoy who and where I am at this very moment, challenges, imperfections, and all.
Thank you.
Namaste : )
Lucy says
Jenny,
Thank you so much for this post! I spent a summer in LA and went each morning to Daniel’s class. I completely forgot about his ending statement and how powerful it is. Thank you for sharing this, I love reading your blogs.
Lucy
stephanie says
This post gave me a full body chill! So beautifully written and so true.
Jami says
This is so incredibly beautiful! It’s as if you are speaking directly to me or taking my thoughts right from my head! I also take Daniel’s class as well every week and his words have never spoked truer to me…it’s as if I have been “snapped” out of a funk / fear I have had to LIVE for years. I am happy for you and wish you all of the happiness this city has to offer you on your journey! Daniel is THE BEST! :)
Emily says
This just made me tear up, I needed to hear this today more than ever.
Thank you!
Maria says
Awesome Blog!!
Ritu says
I love this article! It’s so well written. I’m going to share my story… 2.5 years ago, I was stuck in a relationship that was wrong for both me and my partner, feeling trapped by the good intentions of a great guy. I felt so guilty for not wanting all this love. I hated myself. Fast forward to today, I am in a relationship with a guy who I can GIVE AWAY all of my love to because I give my love away to ME first. No more guilt, no more self hatred. Ta da!
Also, I am doing a lot more yoga now (like at proper studios and not half-assing it at the gym) and can’t WAIT to be able to do an inversion!!!
Love you Jenny.
xo Ritu
megan says
I totally needed this today!